the security guard, the people in the waiting room. I thought someone would realise, someone would jump into action and make everything fine again. Someone would realise the injustice done to me, someone would care. Someone would care. They all looked away. Some annoyed, some uncomfortable. Look at me, fucking do something! I’m not- Slumped over the wheel in my car, pushing my face harder into my hands. Every sob shaking through me like an earthquake. Chest unbelievably tight, forcing every breath out of my body like a punch to my stomach. Pulling my hair to distract me from the invisible pain that pulsed through my body like needles in my blood. I have to fix this, I have to- I slammed my hands down on the wheel, kicking my feet violently against the pedals. There’s no fixing any of this, there’s no saving- I grabbed my hair, pulling hard enough to draw blood from my scalp. I’m not fine, I’m not going to be fine. LXXI